Yesterday was a bad day for me, I was an emotional mess. I was really struggling with where I am in my life right now, how hard it has become and I was feeling a bit sorry for myself. Then I saw this picture posted by one of my friends on Facebook and she wrote “Here’s something to think about” It only took a second for me to snap back into reality.
Here are the real victims of this cruel world. People dying of hunger, with no clean water or medical care. And we complain!
I did continue to cry throughout the day but I just needed to get it all out of my system. I cried myself to sleep early in the evening while I prayed. I woke up feeling somewhat better, then I spent the rest of my evening watching a movie on Lifetime called “Five” about the lives of four different women battling breast cancer and how there lives intertwined in the end. My hubby really tried his best to support me and was just there with me. What a day for reality check’s. I really needed to slow down and soak everything in. I ended my day at 1:30 am after watching Pretty Woman and actually feeling relaxed. I prayed for strength, I asked God to continue to guide me and my family and I thanked him for all that I have.
Today, I feel extremely grateful for my life. For the roof over our heads, the fact that we have food and utilities, for my friends and families. I promised myself to only look at all the good I have in my life. If my daughter who is only 2 has the strength to fight for what she wants and she does it so beautifully then I should learn from her. Afterall that is why she is here, it is not for me to teach her to be it is for her to teach me what life is truly about.
So today I look forward to my future….I am stronger than I want to believe. I have many blessings in my life I will focus on that and throw the rest out the window and most importantly I will trust God’s plan for me. In the end he has the ultimate say, anyway.
So what’s the point in fighting it; So I’m letting go and letting God take control.