I write about my daughter Sophie a lot I know, but she is a big part of who I am today. Don’t get me wrong all of my children have helped shape me into the woman I am but it was not until after Sophie’s birth that I really embraced who I could become. After her birth I found myself in a deep dark place with no hope and then I found a guiding light and in that moment I knew there was a plan and purpose for my journey.
I am dedicated to sharing mine and my families journey into this new world in hopes that I may shed some light on this world that no one wants to talk about. Until you are in this world of special needs or are directly affected by it you are blind to it. I aim to reach out to anyone who will listen to educate them. Through Sophie I have been able to educate doctors and talk to many medical students about Cri du Chat Syndrome and the myths associated with it. I have already reached countless number of families and have been able to provide encouragement, hope and help them on their journey to acceptance.
If you’re a regular follower you know I come from a rough and very difficult childhood. To say I grew up too fast in an understatement. I have overcome my childhood and do not have anger or carry and grudges towards anyone. I decided not to let my past interfere with the person I wanted to be. When we carry anger, resentment or grudges we only poison our lives with those feelings and in most cases the person you carry it towards does not give you another thought.
I have been through alot and overcome even more. Life is hard, circumstances can threaten to destroy you but the outcome is guided by our decisions and how we chose to embrace the trials. The last seven years have been the most difficult of my life. When you have a family especially with children everything is at a heightened emotional level, every moment, every event, every argument and feeling become so much more elevated and difficult. I have chosen to always look for the positive and be proactive in my life.
Here are just a few of things I have learned in the last seven years…
That people are cruel, selfish and judgemental. But there are also wonderful, kind, caring and selfless people who make up for those miserable ones.
The true meaning of forgiveness, patience and unconditional love.
To stand up for myself and eliminate the people who did not bring anything positive into my life because I am worth it.
That it’s ok to ask for help and acknowledge you’re not superhuman and need time for yourself.
Sometimes the toughest and most difficult decisions are the best.
The time you give up you will never have back. Like realizing your children have grown up and you were too busy with life to slow down and enjoy them.
If you do not hope, you will not find what is behind your hopes. Life is what you make of it, no effort will end in no result.
Here are a just a few things I have survived in the last seven years…
An almost divorce.
Total loss of all my financial security, my home, my credit and past dreams.
A time when we had no money for food where I sold every single piece of my jewelry I had including my diamond wedding ring that was very special to me, and I lost it all.
My obsession with being skinny and learning to accept myself the way I am without hating my body. I’m a big girl and that’s ok, it’s refreshing to actually like the way you look.
A lot of bad luck and moments of complete fear and desperation.
Being a mom of seven! Six by birth and my niece who is now a part of our family. I just say she is mine.
Having to start your life over again with seven children.
Here are a just a few things I will continue to overcome…
Letting go of all the emotional trauma my mother in law inflicted upon my children, myself and her interference in my marriage.
Realizing my husband and I have grown apart and are different and not the same people we were 18 years ago, and it’s ok. But as long as we love each other and want to be together we will be ok.
The birth and first three years of a child that would reshape my life forever.