I had my first child VERY young, I was only sixteen years old when I became a mother. While my beautiful first-born son was a blessing in my life his birth also meant there was no going back, I was an adult. I was responsible for another persons life other than just my own. It was scary! I miss living without fear, I have alot of fears.Being a mom can be pretty scary at times.
Before I was a mom, I had no real responsibilities. I miss the peace of mind that accompanied the minimal responsibility.
Before I was a mom had the freedom of doing what I wanted when I wanted too. I didn’t have to worry about anything or anyone else, I miss the freedom.
Before I was a mom I used to dance alot. Music was my passion before my children came into my life; while I still enjoy music I do miss the fun and freedom from dancing with a partner and entering contests.
Before I was a mom I was familiar with sleep, today I barely remember what that is like. It’s not so much that I miss it but it would be nice to actually have some.
Before I was a mom I loved to dream about what my life would be like when I grew up. I miss the daydreams that have been replaced with strict schedules and worries. Now my brain just does not shut down it runs on overload.
But through it all I would not change my life, being a mom has been my greatest accomplishment. Through the craziness I somehow find my moments of peace and clarity that get me through each day. Before I was a mom I had not get grown into the woman I was meant to be.