We chose to return


Last week in North Carolina after we were done with all the hospital visits we had a few hours to kill before our flight back to Florida. We had hoped to visit Raeford to see some friends but there was not enough time since it’s a two-hour drive each way. We did however make it to my husbands old job which was only half the time in travel. My husband had a great job while we lived there, his employer was truly great with him and us and my husband was happy there.

It was important to him that we make the effort to stop by and say hello to his old boss and co-workers, we are happy we did. They were all so happy to see each other, it was a nice experience.

On our way back to the airport we found ourselves reflecting. We talked about the move and what we liked and didn’t like about our move there. I loved it in North Carolina, the weather is beautiful and it’s just so peaceful. What I missed was the business of the city and all my people here in Florida, my friends and family. It wasn’t until that drive that we had really discussed our experience there.

And while we went over it all he asked me if I thought we would have adjusted to life in North Carolina and without thinking I replied with the purest of clarity, I simply told him, “yes, of course we could have but we chose not to”. And he just looked at me and grinned. It was more than just about us, our three eldest children were not happy there, they were very sad there. I had my heart and mind-set on trying to stay there until I experienced several anxiety attacks that made me long to be back in Florida. I felt overwhelmed and alone, the long drives to the doctor and having to coordinate care for my other children on these days took a toll on me too. My children did not want to be there and my husband never wanted to leave Florida to begin with. When I felt it was best for us all to make the move back to Florida we discussed it and my husband and I made the decision to return to Florida together. I do not regret that decision.

In the end it was a great experience, we had a great team of doctors there and we got answers we had been searching for regarding Sophie’s health. We made new friends and experienced a quiet life for a bit. The school system was great with Sophie and we were very comfortable in a really big house. But even all of that was not enough to make us want to stay. Today I am grateful for the experience and to be able to look back and say at least we tried it.

We came back to Florida with a new appreciation for everything in our lives. Our friends, family and all the things we work so hard for. The experience gave us a new perspective and appreciation for life in general. Because we made the choice to return to Florida as a family it helped us find balance within our family unit and has helped us grow closer. For that I am truly grateful.


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3 thoughts on “We chose to return

  1. Wendy Voliva

    I truly believe that everything happens for a reason – your move to NC as well. It may have been just to get the PCD diagnosis for Sophie and find some great doctors for her or for you to learn what you truly had in Florida. Have not seen you on FB in a while you must have gotten off again.

    1. My Dance in the Rain Post author

      Thank you Wendy. I had a blog stalker who had nothing better to do with their time than to attack me so I took a break. It’s sad really that people would go through such lengths to spew negativity, I am grateful I am in a good place in my life that no one has power over me. My life is too full with beautiful moments and people to allow negativity enter it.

      1. Wendy Voliva

        I am sorry to hear that. People can suck. I am glad to hear you are in a good place and that you are not letting the negativity get to you. Glad to see Sophie continues to keep up a good fight and thriving through it all. Many blessings to you and your family. Keep in touch.

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